It seems I am not capable of keeping my learning for these two courses in separate categories. Each experience in one class informs my perception of content and process in the other, and I am left with just a small window of time to reflect on where it might lead me after the summer session is over.
I spend the mornings in improvisation class participating in many small games, exercises, challenges, and practice to build confidence and gradually learn to trust myself to risk bigger mistakes in front of colleagues without breaking down or being angry and defensive or blaming others for my clumsiness. The course has a solid structure which I found hard to accept, probably because I thought I was ready to jump in a little farther along than where we began. Probably wishful thinking and a certain impatience on my part to stick with process and not product. As well, I am more interested right now in the philosophical and global relevance of improvisation than doing it myself.
In the afternoon class, I am challenged to "improvise" with all the programs and apps to create a new paradigm for my classes. Here, flexibility and relevance to each teacher's situation is of prime importance, and I am struggling with new technology and new ideas at the same time. I am tired, depleted and facing reinventing my teaching, at a point when I am just "retired" and going back on a term. I just want to get something done, to complete the assignment, however I realize that this is worth the sweat, so I am trying to be my own cheerleader and plan my last few evenings to crunch through my framework. While the ideas excite me and I am totally on board with trying these concepts with my students, I do have to wrestle with how am I going to
- complete the assignment using the technologies explored this week
- implement the changes at school in the class time I have available.
I hope the universe provides some intuitive solutions: I have the creative seeds....just not sure how to get them sprouted by Friday!
Labels: creativity, improvisation, media